Am I intrinsically prone to evil or completely free to do good and avoid evil?

It is good to think that I am completely free to do good and avoid evil. Thus I hold full responsibility to everything I did. If ever I would make a mistake, it would be due to my own neglect to use my freedom to do good.

But I asked myself, do I possess this freedom completely? Why is it that there were times when I wanted to choose the good I rather did the opposite. For example, during that time when the final exam was yet to come I planned to study ahead so that I would not be preparing for the exam hastily. But there were things that somehow distracted me. I was somehow tempted to postpone studies in favor of reading other materials not related to the subjects I have taken. There were also times when I chose to go with my classmates and put aside studies at later time. It was really awful to discover only later that I have wasted my time.

Another example is the experience of making resolutions. Well, making resolutions is seldom now that I have realized it would just fail. But who do not want to have a good life? So, as much as I could, I want to attain that fullness of life. This could be the main reason of taking resolve once a fault is discovered. But mistakes just keep on repeating or they just come in another forms. Looking back to these mistakes, there are circumstances that made them succeed. We were able to tackle more of these during the SPFY. The reasons of committing mistakes might be past experiences, the surrounding community, the subconscious, or just the lack of strength to resist temptation.

Thus, I see myself as prone to evil. I think, I myself if just left alone on my own would not be able to resist temptation. I want someone to give me the strength and courage to oppose evil. This weakness makes me humble before God. Because of my weakness I should have to cling to Him more constantly; only in Him and through Him that I could find strength against evil.